do over

Can I have do-over please? Isn't great that as kids we could just utter this little phrase and everything that had happened to that moment could be undone forgotten and you just got another go at it? I'd like to be peter pan and have a do-over please.

I finally have time for my kids, sitting here yesterday with empty cereal boxes, glue, sticky paper, pipe cleaners, foil..... has shown me what I have missed out on these past few months. Forget about having time to blog.. I didn't even have time for my kids. It was always 'in a minute... in a minute... we'll do it tomorrow and sometimes tomorrow never came. Instead of focusing on what really matters, kids.. family... I lost it and focused on what other people wanted. In terms of my placement, work, University. I have the summer to spend with my family.. to put them first.. to figure out how I can do that when I return to University in September. I knew it was not going to be easy. I just don't think I realised how hard it actually was. I know the answer is not in becoming supermom.. but instead being a wiser mom. I am still certain that I am on the right path.. I just need to tweak it here and there.

Adam has had a tough time recently. He is not a happy little lad and for this I am truly sorry. The courage it took for him to tell his mom and dad why he hates going to school and why he has angry feelings showed me how cowardly adults can be, we are after all 'masters of disguise'. His honesty took the wind out of our sails and it will not be ignored, pushed under the carpet, or discounted as one of those 'phases' children go through.

On a better note, my momma is doing well and I'll soon get her window shopping everyday again!